03.04.2009

03.04.2009

Today is friday ady.......1 week, is been 1 week I din c her.....even though ady decide begin my new life without her....but is really hard.....last9 go dinner with darren, rayson, watson, angel.....is the place i tapao for her b4.....lots of memory appear in my mind....after that go neway sing k.....all the delicious food in front of me....but i din eat much....usually i eat a lot even after dinner....especially dessert....but dunno why, just feeling dun wan eat.....without her beside me, i dun feel wanna eat......whole nite I look ok...but i know my heart and mind thinking about her......just all the memory btw us keep appear in mind.....we go eat nasi lemak beside my house, go sunway pyramid dating, go asia cafe eat crab, go all the place.....100 roses and proposed, planning on wedding photo, planning on our wedding ring, all the handmade card, steamboot at home, she cook me hotdog, i cook her tong sui, i make her mango torte cake, we massage for each other, play mahjung n when she lose, the cute face of her, she fetch me work, i fetch her work, we take care each other when sick, watch movie 2gether, she lying on my leg, i hug her, wake her up in morning, the way she talk to eeyore when i use eeyore kacau her....our 1st trip in PD, our 1st trip in Melacca, our anniversary surprise for each other, the way she kiss my forehead when i ady sleep or sick....accompany her cutting hair at sky, she find me lunch, i find her lunch, window cafe, all those memory...a lot a lot......keep on appear n appear......and ady get use will sms her when i go out.....will auto take out my hp wish to sms her....but i know i no need to do that, type the sms and delete it again.....repeating......i know i cant be like that, i cant looking back.....i know i must be tough....tat's why no matter how many times she appear in mind, i also try my best talk and laugh with them, but sure darren know that i m pretending.....i must be tough......i know no matter how hard it is, i must....we sing till around 12am....coz i need work need rest early.....when I sleep, wish to sms her again, but i din do it......I tell xiu gui and xiao bai, we will be ok de, I know they miss daddy and I tell them no matter how, i wont leave them....i love them very much so as their daddy.....xiu gui and xiao bai, u 2 must tough also....just now wake up, dunno why sudden tie my hair....tie to the style she like.....so just tie my hair 2day....i like it also.....shirly kuan, gambateh.......