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Can u guys pls dun simply comment me and use ur true name to comment me, dun use other ppl nickname...if u not dare to let me know who u r, just keep ur mouth shut....and y u din comment anyting about 30.03.2009 that post??nothing to say about CONDITION LOVE ar??nothing to say bout she din care my safety in midnight??...ask every1 izzit fair for CONDITION LOVE?? next time do the same thing to ur GF lah, let her walk alone in midnight, c wat her respond......see ur GF willing or not.....
Tuesday, 31 March 2009
Tuesday Pasar Malam
Tuesday Pasar Malam
Suddenly think of today is Tuesday...Today have pasar malam in sg long....last Wed when i wan go connaugh pasar malam, she asking me dont go 1st, she promise me this week tues acc me go pasar malam...is TODAY...today is the date she promise....but i know i will never have this chance anymore even today is the date she promise.........wat should i do 2nite to let myself more happy....should i go pasar malam alone....or just stay at home then rest early.....i dunno wat the hell with my mind, keep on thinking about her......i cant concentrate at all.....even i delete all her contact in facebook, friendster....but i stil cant delete her in my MIND......i remember her phone number, remeber her face, remember all the things she told me, remember all the promise she made, remember all the memory of her........wat can i do..................i so suffer.......i wish i can die now.......i tell myself not to drop anymore tears bcoz of her...but now......i dun wan cry....i dun wan cry in office....i m so useless.....i hope myself can coma and forget this person......
Suddenly think of today is Tuesday...Today have pasar malam in sg long....last Wed when i wan go connaugh pasar malam, she asking me dont go 1st, she promise me this week tues acc me go pasar malam...is TODAY...today is the date she promise....but i know i will never have this chance anymore even today is the date she promise.........wat should i do 2nite to let myself more happy....should i go pasar malam alone....or just stay at home then rest early.....i dunno wat the hell with my mind, keep on thinking about her......i cant concentrate at all.....even i delete all her contact in facebook, friendster....but i stil cant delete her in my MIND......i remember her phone number, remeber her face, remember all the things she told me, remember all the promise she made, remember all the memory of her........wat can i do..................i so suffer.......i wish i can die now.......i tell myself not to drop anymore tears bcoz of her...but now......i dun wan cry....i dun wan cry in office....i m so useless.....i hope myself can coma and forget this person......
我的回忆不是我的
我的回忆不是我的
伤心的总会任性 灰心的总会用气力
将最好的过去 将最多的细碎
锁到属于你的眼睛
失恋的不够耐心 失恋的不信是注定
于最黑的世界 于最光的刹那感动
属于你的气息
即使很多一起过的 想起的通通你的 为着是浪漫的爱情
通通都可再见 但承诺可再听
什么可不变色oh baby
当晚与你记住蒲公英 今晚偏偏想起风的清劲
回忆不再受制于我我承认 回忆也许你的
当晚与你记住流水声 今晚站在大地自己倾听
难道送别你回头总是虔诚 谁能怪我总是太感性
失恋的都有惰性 失恋的都记住约定
当理想的世界 当理想的刹那 因爱无分你的我的
即使很多一起过的 想起的通通你的 为着是浪漫的爱情
通通都可再见 但承诺可再听
什么可不变色oh baby
当晚与你记住蒲公英 今晚偏偏想起风的清劲
回忆不再受制于我我承认 回忆也许你的
当晚与你记住流水声 今晚站在大地自己倾听
难道送别你回头总是虔诚 谁能怪我总是太感性
伤心的总会任性 灰心的总会用气力
将最好的过去 将最多的细碎
锁到属于你的眼睛
失恋的不够耐心 失恋的不信是注定
于最黑的世界 于最光的刹那感动
属于你的气息
即使很多一起过的 想起的通通你的 为着是浪漫的爱情
通通都可再见 但承诺可再听
什么可不变色oh baby
当晚与你记住蒲公英 今晚偏偏想起风的清劲
回忆不再受制于我我承认 回忆也许你的
当晚与你记住流水声 今晚站在大地自己倾听
难道送别你回头总是虔诚 谁能怪我总是太感性
失恋的都有惰性 失恋的都记住约定
当理想的世界 当理想的刹那 因爱无分你的我的
即使很多一起过的 想起的通通你的 为着是浪漫的爱情
通通都可再见 但承诺可再听
什么可不变色oh baby
当晚与你记住蒲公英 今晚偏偏想起风的清劲
回忆不再受制于我我承认 回忆也许你的
当晚与你记住流水声 今晚站在大地自己倾听
难道送别你回头总是虔诚 谁能怪我总是太感性
31.03.2009
31.03.2009
last nite i keep on thinking about her.....she even appears in my dream....izzit think more will dream bout her....i dun wanna dream of her....i dun wanna in dream also feel sad.....how can i forget this person....how can i dun think bout her.....the more i love her, the more i get hurt.....i must love myself, i cant bcoz of her make myself so sad n sad....although i know rainbow will always there after the rainy day, but when only the rain stop, when only the rainbow comes......i so suffer....i know i miss her a lot....but we wont be together anymore....she doesnt love me at all.....pls let me stop crying, let me stop my tears drop bcoz of her....pls.....i so wish to go back home...my home....kl is no more my dreams....love only will make ppl hurt....love is nothing...all the while, i keep searching the person that love me and i love him.....been thru so many relationship, the fact tell me love is nothing....even u love her, doesnt means she must love u as ur wish.....the truth of love is hurt....in the end, the things i get now is hurt....love a person so deep, sacrifice everything in this relationship, the only thing i get is........is being say i cheat her money, saying i m one in a million, saying i m the worst....i though she will be the 1 that build family with me, i though my daughter name will be STEPHANIE WONG and son name will be SEAN WONG....i though she say will buy me a diamond and we go take wedding photo and getting marry to her....i though we will own a house together in kl.....i though we will spend our retirement time in sban....i though she say she will LOVE me forever and WONT LEAVE ME alone is true.......everything everything just a empty promise....now only i realise all the promise is just a sweet talk.....now i only i realise.....everything is too late for me.....i ady fall so deep, jump so deep......i dun wan any love anymore.....i hate love........
last nite i keep on thinking about her.....she even appears in my dream....izzit think more will dream bout her....i dun wanna dream of her....i dun wanna in dream also feel sad.....how can i forget this person....how can i dun think bout her.....the more i love her, the more i get hurt.....i must love myself, i cant bcoz of her make myself so sad n sad....although i know rainbow will always there after the rainy day, but when only the rain stop, when only the rainbow comes......i so suffer....i know i miss her a lot....but we wont be together anymore....she doesnt love me at all.....pls let me stop crying, let me stop my tears drop bcoz of her....pls.....i so wish to go back home...my home....kl is no more my dreams....love only will make ppl hurt....love is nothing...all the while, i keep searching the person that love me and i love him.....been thru so many relationship, the fact tell me love is nothing....even u love her, doesnt means she must love u as ur wish.....the truth of love is hurt....in the end, the things i get now is hurt....love a person so deep, sacrifice everything in this relationship, the only thing i get is........is being say i cheat her money, saying i m one in a million, saying i m the worst....i though she will be the 1 that build family with me, i though my daughter name will be STEPHANIE WONG and son name will be SEAN WONG....i though she say will buy me a diamond and we go take wedding photo and getting marry to her....i though we will own a house together in kl.....i though we will spend our retirement time in sban....i though she say she will LOVE me forever and WONT LEAVE ME alone is true.......everything everything just a empty promise....now only i realise all the promise is just a sweet talk.....now i only i realise.....everything is too late for me.....i ady fall so deep, jump so deep......i dun wan any love anymore.....i hate love........
Monday, 30 March 2009
Lier....u r lier
Lier....u r lier
u are lier.....u say love me, but u add ur EX pic in facebook....the most over is dunno when u go meet her and play until WET with her....I'm too disapointed with u....shirly kuan, pls wake up....she dun love u at all....if not,she wont go out with her and even put those pic in facebook....is time for u really wake up.....last time u say i put ex pic in facebook, wan me delete, now u put it....i know wat u means ady......shirly kuan, pls pls pls wake up......u need to delete her, delete all whose things u dun wanna see.....y make myself so suffer to view it, better delete it then everything will be fine....rainbow is always there after heavy rain....cheer up......
u are lier.....u say love me, but u add ur EX pic in facebook....the most over is dunno when u go meet her and play until WET with her....I'm too disapointed with u....shirly kuan, pls wake up....she dun love u at all....if not,she wont go out with her and even put those pic in facebook....is time for u really wake up.....last time u say i put ex pic in facebook, wan me delete, now u put it....i know wat u means ady......shirly kuan, pls pls pls wake up......u need to delete her, delete all whose things u dun wanna see.....y make myself so suffer to view it, better delete it then everything will be fine....rainbow is always there after heavy rain....cheer up......
30.03.2009
30.03.2009
Today early morning give her spoil my mood....y she always wan like that....28.03.2009, she say wanna break up and chasing me for money that she help me pay for repair car last time...when i wanna pay her bek, she dun wan give me account and say no need....then at that night, she say wanna patch bek...i ask her come sban find me if she have heart to do so....she came...but in the end, she let me walk alone home at midnight 12.40 am, that time my shoes was broken, she never chase me and find me when i walk out from the mamak...if she really love me, y she din worry about my safety??why wan let me walk home in MIDNIGHT??is this so call LOVE........so last nite, she sms me say dun wanna break up and wanna work things out....i reply her saying will wait and see how she love me....who's noe this morning when i reached office, i got her sms again.....she blame me for change facebook status to ''single''....i changed it during saturday not today, that time is she say wanna break....but she blame me....i feeling so innocent, early morning give ppl say me like that.....why when last time she say wan break up and patch back with CONDITION don't let her frens know, then she can change the status to SINGLE, and until today she is still putting ''single''...why i cant change the status as after she say wanna break up??where is the FAIRNESS??? i noe she wont fair to me....i noe she wont...she just EXPERT IN TALK EVERYTHING, but WHEN DO, SHE WONT DO......now she wishing me to get new gf....means last nite all the sms from her is actually BULLSHIT....i wont listen her anymore....i wont trust any single word of her anymore.....she is lier..........
Today early morning give her spoil my mood....y she always wan like that....28.03.2009, she say wanna break up and chasing me for money that she help me pay for repair car last time...when i wanna pay her bek, she dun wan give me account and say no need....then at that night, she say wanna patch bek...i ask her come sban find me if she have heart to do so....she came...but in the end, she let me walk alone home at midnight 12.40 am, that time my shoes was broken, she never chase me and find me when i walk out from the mamak...if she really love me, y she din worry about my safety??why wan let me walk home in MIDNIGHT??is this so call LOVE........so last nite, she sms me say dun wanna break up and wanna work things out....i reply her saying will wait and see how she love me....who's noe this morning when i reached office, i got her sms again.....she blame me for change facebook status to ''single''....i changed it during saturday not today, that time is she say wanna break....but she blame me....i feeling so innocent, early morning give ppl say me like that.....why when last time she say wan break up and patch back with CONDITION don't let her frens know, then she can change the status to SINGLE, and until today she is still putting ''single''...why i cant change the status as after she say wanna break up??where is the FAIRNESS??? i noe she wont fair to me....i noe she wont...she just EXPERT IN TALK EVERYTHING, but WHEN DO, SHE WONT DO......now she wishing me to get new gf....means last nite all the sms from her is actually BULLSHIT....i wont listen her anymore....i wont trust any single word of her anymore.....she is lier..........
Tuesday, 24 March 2009
Only you
Only you
I feeling so unhappy....why every single thing also not allow.....she can post anything about me in her blog previously, even how bad she write about me...''One In A Million''....i still remember she write me about this....how come now i cant blog my feeling in blog??this is my blog,my diary....why she not allow me to blog my feeling....i ady very unhappy, no frens can talk about this....no frens know that we patch back....the only way that i can express my feeling is thru blog....but now she not allow me to post previous blog....she say is private, she say i dont care her feeling....then did she ever care my feeling??who else can let me talk??how can i realise those unhappy things??the only blog that let me realise also no more.....if like that, i better just keep the blog private....better just myself can view the blog.....i m really tired in this relationship....i wish to let go....i starting have the feeling to let go....no matter how much i love her....i know things wont work out....1st time i feeling myself failure....fail to being a good gf.....1st time....never ever have this feeling before.....GOD, should i let go her?? izzit we will feel better if we let go each other?? GOD,pls give me the answer....pls HELP ME...what should i do..........
I feeling so unhappy....why every single thing also not allow.....she can post anything about me in her blog previously, even how bad she write about me...''One In A Million''....i still remember she write me about this....how come now i cant blog my feeling in blog??this is my blog,my diary....why she not allow me to blog my feeling....i ady very unhappy, no frens can talk about this....no frens know that we patch back....the only way that i can express my feeling is thru blog....but now she not allow me to post previous blog....she say is private, she say i dont care her feeling....then did she ever care my feeling??who else can let me talk??how can i realise those unhappy things??the only blog that let me realise also no more.....if like that, i better just keep the blog private....better just myself can view the blog.....i m really tired in this relationship....i wish to let go....i starting have the feeling to let go....no matter how much i love her....i know things wont work out....1st time i feeling myself failure....fail to being a good gf.....1st time....never ever have this feeling before.....GOD, should i let go her?? izzit we will feel better if we let go each other?? GOD,pls give me the answer....pls HELP ME...what should i do..........
心情
心情
今天很没心情。。。昨晚发生了一些不开心的事。。。或许她说得对，我是万维的，也想做万维。。。她说我自私，如果这算是自私，那她也不是一样吗？？她阿姨来访时，她也不要和我。。。现在我阿姨来，不能做而不是不想做，她却说我自私。。我因为她想要，也明知自己必须忍，虽然自己也很有需要，都已经去弄她了，反而却被说成我自私。。。我的心很痛。。。真的非常非常痛。。。为什么她要那样说我。。。我以后还怎样去面对她。。。性爱原本是两个人的事，现在却变到好像。。。我听到她说的话，真得好像男人说的话。。。一个蛮不讲理，又自私的大男人。。。我到底该如何。。。。如何才能变成她心中的老婆。。。 我开始模糊了。。。怎么办。。。。
今天很没心情。。。昨晚发生了一些不开心的事。。。或许她说得对，我是万维的，也想做万维。。。她说我自私，如果这算是自私，那她也不是一样吗？？她阿姨来访时，她也不要和我。。。现在我阿姨来，不能做而不是不想做，她却说我自私。。我因为她想要，也明知自己必须忍，虽然自己也很有需要，都已经去弄她了，反而却被说成我自私。。。我的心很痛。。。真的非常非常痛。。。为什么她要那样说我。。。我以后还怎样去面对她。。。性爱原本是两个人的事，现在却变到好像。。。我听到她说的话，真得好像男人说的话。。。一个蛮不讲理，又自私的大男人。。。我到底该如何。。。。如何才能变成她心中的老婆。。。 我开始模糊了。。。怎么办。。。。
Monday, 23 March 2009
漫长的一天
漫长的一天 今天一大早就从舒服的家驾车回来KL。。。早上五点就必须起床，昨晚又迟睡，真的很累，很眼睡。。。刚才驾车差点就出事，想起都觉得害怕。。。。昨晚我和她又搞到不开心。。。其实自己因为阿姨来访，知道自己心情会不好，所以特地不会去见她，以免会失去容忍她，结果还是。。。没分别。。。一直在想，是她说大家可以有自由，可是又。。。我一时忘记告诉她我的行踪，却又。。。知道是自己说会改变，可是改变也需要时间的啊，那可以说变就立刻变呢。。。每次一做少一样事，就会说我一点都没变，听了都心痛。。。想想她答应我改坏脾气，也不是一样到现在都没改好，一样小事大事都被骂。。。是不是不管我做什么，都永远达不到她的要求呢？？我该反省。。。。也许。。。。这样就会开心点。。。。她时常问我是不是不开心，其实不是不开心，只不过有时我一点小错，当和她道歉了，她还是一样不接受，反而说一些难听的话时，那时就真的不开心。。。。一直告诉自己，不要为了小事和她计较，要大方，这样才不会影响我们的关系，可是有时当我心情差时，就不能容忍了，就只有不出声，避免吵架。。。之前不是已经说过当要吵架时，其中一方不出声就能了吗，但结果还是被说成我没变。。。听了真的很心痛。。。。到底我该怎样。。。我知道现在写了这个blog，过后她会问我很多问题。。。darling,我是想和你说对不起，不要生气了好不好？？我爱你。。。。。
Friday, 20 March 2009
20.03.09
20.03.09
今天她病了，很担心她。。。希望她快快好起来。。。。今天的心情比昨天更担心。。。昨晚我们。。。也不知道要怎样说。。。。希望一切都会变好，那就开心多了。。。不知道她睡醒了吗。。。。很想念她哦。。明天不能和她一起，不然可以好好粘在一起，一起看戏，一气吃面，一起打麻将。。。好想和她说其实我想陪她的，但是。。。。算了。。。。刚刚你说读了我的部落格，问我是不是不开心。。。其是不是不开心，只是在担心。。担心你会离开我。。。我知道自己很爱恨爱你。。。所以就会担心很多。。。或许我真的想太多了啦。。。。我的心肝叮，你要照顾自己哦和。。不要让我担心你。。。答应我快快好起来哦。。。
19.03.2009
19.03.2009 今天做了一个决定，不知道这个决定到底对不对，只知道我很想和他一起。。。我该怎么办。。。我很怕很怕我的决定是错的，因为我感觉不对。。。她昨天才说我逼她，今天却突然这样说。。。。她会不会像我想象中那样呢。。。她会不会是因为这样才和我好回呢。。。。我很怕，真的很怕。。。心中一直想到这个疑问。。。卡门说这不是真爱。。其实就算卡门不说，我也觉得。。。如果我的想法是错的，她是真心爱我，依然爱我才和我复合的，那我当然开心，就算我们的关系不能公开，我也开心。。。但是，如果我的担心是对的，我该怎么办。。。昨天我在公司哭时，依树和我说一个人也必须开心，不要为一个人搞到自己这样。。。大人昨晚对我也这样说。。。我原本已决定一个人，现在又这样。。。希望我的担心是错的。。。
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