25.02.09

25.02.09

Today not so busy in office...maybe god know i cant concentrate on work due to the arguement, that's why let me free a bit....i rather choose to busy so that i wont think so much about what had happen to me....recently busy for moving house problem, a lot of things need to keep and clean up, but still will have arguement between me and her....all the while, i tell myself not to argue with her...in the end, the arguement will still happen...think back now, everytime the arguement start from her...she always feel that i'm treat her not enough good, that's why everytime arguement still happen...from a small little things to big things, she can have way to angry me and start the quarrel with me...if i keep quiet, she will say i ignore her...try to tell myself dun talk so much when she is angry, that's why everytime when i know she is something wrong, i will just keep quiet rather than talk, course i know when i talk or try to ask her what happen, she will argue with me more serious....but in the end, arguement also will start...i really dunno how to handle all this...keep quiet will be saying me ignore her...if dun keep quiet, she will also have somthing to say on me and start argue more....what should i do only she will feel happy??this question always come out in my mind....i know love is can't force...maybe she just need a maid that won't argue with her and do all her things very good....rather than need a wife or gf.....or should i say maybe she need another herself, so that will know what in her mind and fullfil all her needs....i m just a normal girl...i m not her worms in her stomach, i wont know all she needs and cant fullfil all her needs....sometime i m asking myself since she so unsatisfy towards me, why she still together with me??she always tell me she do love me and she meant it....however, i think her love is not uncondition...her love is not blind...she is very rational in what she want me to do...i know she really love me but she not that kind of person can sacrifice or change everything even she love me....if yes, she will not little things want angry me....she do change for not going clubbing, this i know...maybe she get hurts before, so she wont trust me....she wont trust all i want is just be with her and have family with her...since she ady have this kind of perception, no matter what i do, she still will get angry and feel unappreciate....i do appreciate her from the day we start till now...but the fact is...useless...she wont feel it..she just will think i m not....since now everything become like that, i know what i do also useless...let fate bring us...fate let's us meet each other and fall in love with each other, i sure fate will bring us together if we really a couple...hope fate will make things work....